Going through some of my old stuff from freshmen year and I come across my yearbook. As I’m reading through all the comments my friends had to say, I come across the page were my boyfriend, now ex, wrote in. I guess his page caught my eye because this Sunday (June 2) we would of made a year. I keep re-reading what he wrote and just can’t help but feel so down. I miss him.  Like shit man, I really miss him. It’s hard for me to just move on and forget him like with my past boyfriends because he was the first guy I ever had a first serious relationship with. They say memories are what keep you warm inside… But they’re also what tear you apart. I can’t help but remember all those hours we spent on the phone talking, making each other laugh and smile, and not hanging up till one of us, or even both, fell asleep. Since the breakup, I noticed that I’ve changed drastically. I miss the old me. The old me that would laugh at anything someone said. The old me who did not let little things someone said get to her. I look at myself in the mirror right now and I can’t even recognize who I am anymore. My smile, what use to be full of laughs and joy, is now so dull and empty. All I want to know is what happened to us? What happened to “we’ll make this friendship work out no matter what obstacle comes in our way”. It really hurts seeing you talk to other girls and not even give me the time of day to say hi. It specifically hurts hearing from your friends that you are moving on and talking to this one girl like the way you did with me, after you told me “I would never stop loving and caring about you”… It sure doesn’t seem like you are following through your promise.. hmp.. I just want to rewind time and go back to the days were I called you my “babish” and you call me “my love”….. but I guess that can’t happen and now I just got to deal with the heartbreak and pain of seeing you be happy with another girl.